a few friends have approached me with the question about reaching out...

I will share my one of my own experiences.  I asked for a healing of my hear several months ago.  As the guide was working on my heart, he said 'you are not alone, every one here has the same issue.  Your heart hurts from not connecting, that is the anguishing pain (constriction) you feel.  First connect with the whole, then ask is there some person I need to connect with?"

I shed two or three buckets of tears.  As the evening was coming to an end I asked myself "Is there someone here that would be good for me to reach out to?"  I intuitively got a yes of a particular person.  I got my courage up and asked her if she had time to chat afterward.  She was open to this, and we had a valuable conversation.

Courage - of the heart - is a present time soul ability, that grows as we use it.
Not having expectations or taking it personally are also soul abilities that grow with practice.  And being unconditionally kind to ourselves also grows with practice.  There is no failure.

I hope this helps, please let me know how it goes!

Love Jill

In my dream, I am sculpting a turtle, it is pretty big, like a see turtle.
It is up side down.  Apparently I have made the shell first, it is rather fragile, I keep running into it as I reach inside to make the body.  I pause and walk around my creation and notice these decorative images sort of like two dimensional Indian dancers - all the same, repeating around the outside of the turtle.  I don't like these, they feel obsessive compulsive - repeat repeat repeat- ugh, I can feel it, over and over. I edit them( mush them back into clay).  Thinking that is not what I want to express. I don't need all that decoration, but it was there, some part of me made it  Is it that simple to just delete that pattern? Or do I need to go back and study it, try to solve it, make friends with it. I will take this awareness into my day today and notice if this is showing up.  I have been working on my heart protection (shell) so maybe this is part of the process.

  I like the idea of create and destroy, is it part of me I am destroying?  or my creation?  Maybe there is a more gentle and kind way of being with, instead of deleting - there might be some fine resources in those dancing figures to re configure...