Testing Testing 1-2-3

Well, where in your life are you being tested? Oh that sounds so serious, tests, failure making mistakes, ugh boo boo, bad, good.

I bought a new (used) fun summer shirt and dress.  I quickly proceeded to spill something on the dress right between the boobs. I scrubbed a spot remover on it, and oh dear the dye came out. 

Hum.


Then another spot on a pocket of the shirt, right on the left breast.

Hum

I am almost noticing a pattern here.

The impulse to clean it up, I can't go out with a spot on my shirt, especially there.  I hear this.  It curls me.  Anxious. 

I go to a party anyway with that there spot, right on my left boob.




I wonder about covering with a patch., yes I could take a peic  Urgh.


Then I land a spot on the dress, right at crotch level. 

It does not come out either.

Ok I am getting it, deeper and deeper we go, ho ho.

I am remembering the concept of perfect pictures.  Do I have any?  Do you have any?  Did  I borrow some, or do you want some of mine, or did I take some of yours or someone's maybe my mother or father, or who ever  unconscious, yum, that is what is they are doing, Did I think or just swallow it, unconsciously,  that "looked" good at the time. 

I ?  Not so amused or neutral to spots on clothes Me? Oh My.

The real question is, do I want to be controlled by them, now that I am aware of them. Can I be neutral and compassionate, eh whether it is spots or other boo boos, kind and not punishing.  That sounds like a new behavior.



Now I am sure I will have another opportunity to have a spot or two land on my clothes and how am I going to respond.


Do you have this happen in your life?

I would like to hear, so we can share our laugh.ter